At 14 I know Java’s days are limited. Each day she sleeps a little longer, her legs shake a little more each time she gets up. All the signs of her ending are there, they small and insignificant but I know one day soon they won’t be.
I watch how Brady lays next to her,
how he kisses her, looks for her when she is in another room. I wonder who will be more devastated when she passes away Brady or me?
I am doing my best to stop focusing so much of my life on work, as I finally recognized the negative impacts it was having on me in terms of health, social life, emotional well-being etc. I also noticed how protective of their time other people were, which for me was really the “light bulb moment’.
One of the guidelines I recently gave myself was no reading/sending emails on the weekend(or really late at night during the workweek), because you know it’s the weekend and no one wants to see work emails while they are trying to relax and enjoy their down time.
Fast forward to this weekend where I received a couple URGENT email requests on my phone, instead of dropping everything I was doing to answer and provide the needed updates, which in the past is my typical reaction, I responded with “I usually do an hour or two of admin work on Sunday evenings to prepare for the upcoming week, I will include this in that time but will not be available before then.” #babysteps